Last semester was a challenge, but it's behind me now and I passed my classes with A's. I learned a great deal in both classes, especially the survey research class. Next semester will be qualitative research. Again... I plan to only take the one class. But you never know. This summer's rest may be enough to recharge my batteries.
I've also used some of the extra time to organize all the research articles I've gathered and to work on this website/portfolio. I need to continue writing reflections of the AIL courses.
While I 100% believe that God called me on this doctoral journey, I still do not know why! I find myself often talking with God and asking again and again, "Are you sure? Did I really hear you correctly? There IS a reason you need me to have a PhD?" Faith. I just have to have faith and keep walking forward, one class at a time. One research article at a time. Maybe God just wants to learn patience, endurance, and trust. Maybe he just wants me to challenge myself intellectually. Maybe he needs me to be somewhere particular or do a particular job that will require a PhD. I just don't know. But I keep feeling that push to keep going. And I trust God with all my heart. If he wants me on this journey, then it's for a good reason and he will bless me and use me beyond my expectations. I'm thankful he chose me for the job. With his strength and wisdom, I'll keep going.
This scripture spoke to me this morning. "We remember before our God and Father your work produced by faith, your labor prompted by love, and your endurance inspired by hope in our Lord Jesus Christ." 1 Thessalonians 1:3.